So, I should be doing my Show and Tell, but, I think I only have one post in me tonight. I've been MIA...and there is no excuse. Not much has been going on - and I've certainly been keeping up with all of you. Our last negative was certainly more difficult and has taken us longer to recover from than either of us expected or wanted to admit. This whole waiting until January thing is so frustrating to me. I feel like we are in the exact same place as we were last year. We were waiting to meet with our RE in January. Here we are again. I know we have learned a lot over the past 10 months, but damn if it doesn't piss me off that we are no better off now than 1 year ago. Clearly, my annoyance is shining through.
I did at home Ov tests this month and didn't ever get a positive result. That was very frustrating. What's more - is that I will probably have a perfect 28 day cycle. How does that work? I've always been clock work regular - how can that be if there is never an egg?
I met a chiropractor, who is a friend of a friend. She is very "into" holistic practices. I talked to her in depth about my situation and am planning to go see her next week. She said there are some dietary changes I can make to help prepare my body for an IVF cycle in January. I've mailed my records from RE#1 to RE#2 (Dr. K). Dr. K is going to do some blood work (FSH and I think AMH) with my December cycle.
I'm slammed at work, which is good. I feel like I've been running around like a chicken with my head cut off. This week will be another crazy work week, too...and the big 3-0 is Saturday.
All in all, I should not be as pissed off about this as I am. I just feel like we've made ZERO progress - and then I read all kinds of IF related blogs, etc and realize I am not even as educated about this IF stuff as I thought. I don't know what all else to ask Dr. K to test me for in December. Any suggestions?
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Sometimes we just really need to wrap our own heads around what is going on before we write it all out. We're here whenever you are ready.
I can relate to feeling like you are in the exact same place. We were waiting for our RE#2 consult last January and now we are on for RE#3 cycle this January. I like to think we did learn a few things along the way, but we still aren't pregnant. ):
We all pretty much learn as we go with this IF stuff. I tend to take keywords from other blogs of things that I don't understand and go on all out internet research projects to know if it is something I should be asking about.
All REs are different, but I'm happy to share some of my questions with you anytime. Just drop me an email at Lost.in.Space.2008@gmail.com. If anything it will give you some key words. (:
Hugs, hun. You are moving forward.
I'm sorry the BFNs seem to be getting harder. They suck. Like you, I feel like I'm moving backwards in time...always back to square one, only square one is much crappier than it used to be. Square one has a little bit less hope with each turn around. The wait in between cycles is just added torture.
Don't feel bad about not feeling educated about IF. It had been almost 4 years since we began TTC when I even learned what FSH levels mean...yikes! I turned a blind eye because in many ways, it was my way of avoiding bad news. I had had enough already. Nevertheless, it's not too late to catch up.
Many **hugs** for you.
I so get going MIA in the crap times ... for me it was July. Notice that I have NO posts for the entire month.
Ok, I hope it's not me who is discouraging you in terms of what you know or don't know yet ... know that I spend 20+ hours a week researching this stuff. I am addicted ... it's more healthy that you are not.
As far as tests or questions ... I like your idea of doing AMH. If not able to ... you could do a phone consult w/CCRM and send them your CD3 bloodwork (which includes AMH) ... from the research I've been doing they use a kit from a far superior manufacture of AMH testing. Even if you don't intend on cycling with CCRM you could get the bloodwork done. It would cost you approx $500 (not sure if that sounds like a lot to you)
Also, I think you should ask for the E-tegrity test (the one Brenda from No Regrets just took) that will tell you if you have enzymes in your uterus to hold on to a pregnancy.
And if you wanted to go gonzo (which I always do) you could ask for some recurrent loss testing?? The way I see it, you don't want to get knocked up only to m/c b/c your body couldn't have held it for whatever reason. If you're interested in learning more about those ba-jillion tests let me know: pollygamwich at yahoo dot com.
And I feel like I too am sitting in the same position as I was last year ... it will be a year since we even tried to get pregnant come January ... Merry Christmas to us, huh?
Big hugs Tara,
Polly
You girls rock!!! Thank you! I will be reaching out via email for sure :) Thank you!
Our chiropractor also gave us some really good "holistic" avenues to look down. We have not started them yet, but we have certainly discussed them. Good luck.
Hi! I followed a link to your blog from Polly's blog today and all I can say is WOW! Your story and mine are so incredibly similar, it's scary.
I don't really have any good advice on what to ask your RE to test you for (besides, it seems like Polly's totally got that covered already!), but I will continue to follow your journey. I can't wait to hear what the chiropractor recommends...I'm always on the lookout for little things that we can do to help our bodies along as much as possible.
And happy birthday early to you! I just turned 30 last month, and it's not as bad as everyone says it is! I hope that 30 is a fantastic year for both of us!
The big, 3-0, huh? It's not so bad, really? I think the actual birthday day is worse than being thirty.
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