I have a funny feeling...and I think it's Hope creeping back in. I thought she'd long since abandoned me...given that I haven't seen a glimpse of her in what feels like months. But, I think she may be slowly trying to edge back into my life. I must admit, I would prefer to keep her at bay and protect my damaged-enough-already heart.
A few reasons for hope:
My friend at A Few Good Sperm is waiting on her 3rd beta. Her levels have been normal so far. This is awesome! I've been wondering if IVF was just a masochist activity my doctor has been joking about and that it never really worked for anyone. Her positive has done a lot for my belief in IVF.
A sweet baby girl was born the day of my retrieval to a fertile friend of mine. While fertile, they have experienced an early miscarriage and he is so compassionate with my rants surrounding IF. Maybe his miracle is an omen for us?
So far, we've had decent, dare I say good, fertilization reports. I'm starting to *hope* that we will maybe have 1 or 2 to freeze.
Its been strange not talking incessantly about this cycle with my friends. However, its been a nice break for my heart. I've just been coasting through, kind of in denial that its even been happening.
I sit here now, on pins and needles (and a heating pad), waiting for more news. *Hoping* that month 30 of this journey, in my 30th year, will bring us the miracle we've been hoping for all along.
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Glad to see you and "HOPE" kissed and made up. Feels good right? I have hope for you too...I think it is going to be a great summer for all of us!
Hope can be a dirty bitch. I'm glad she's being nice to you right now.
Congrats on the great fertilization. Freezing some would be awesome!!!
Thank you for this Tara, you are so sweet! I'm so happy for you, I didn't even realize you had your retrieval! You've been good at 'staying under the radar.' I really hope this is "the one" for you. :)
Im glad Hope is sneaking back in :) Whats life without hope, right? Praying this is your time!!
Hope is a wonderful thing and so beautiful to see around you and then feelin yourself!!! Will say a prayer for your lucky #30 :)
I am happy to hear that hope is finding its way back. I too am hoping that everything goes well this round and 30 is your lucky number!
I hope only good things for you, that all goes well, and that you're enjoying your coasting through without worrying too much.
I hope for you.
Tara,
Saying a prayer for you and this cycle. I'm so happy you're feeling hopeful.
You've come a long way and I'm thankful you can have hope for possible freezing.
Hoping and praying for the very best.
God Bless,
Anna
Aww, Hope. I'm glad she's playing nice at the moment :) Good luck hun.
Hope can only help and aid in this process. Fingers crossed for you!
I'm cheering for you and hope everything goes well. It's always good to hear success stories. Sometimes it totally seems like it doesn't work for anyone. But, it does and there is good medical studies to prove that it does! Good luck with everything!
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