It's only TUESDAY????

How I have missed my blog in the past few days. I had every intention of posting last night, and boy, I needed to - but ended up at my neighbors house (T) until 1AM. I'm not sure why I am swearing every night needs to be a recreation of my 21st birthday - I guess I need to blow off some steam.

I went to my regular OB/GYN yesterday for my annual. A pap was supposed to be a part of my IVF work up...but, somehow that was missed. My regular Doc looks like he is about 18 (T sees him, too). We call him Doogie Houser :). I was annoyed that I had to go when the RE should have handled this, but one does what one must. I had NO IDEA how hard it would be for me to go there. I think every single person there was pregnant and had at least 1 child with them. I guess I always thought I'd have a basketball under my shirt when I went back. It made me really sad.

After getting weighed (dreadful), the nurse, who was super nice, asked me a totally normal question - What was the first day of your last period? OMG - how the levies did break. I haven't had a period since a week and a half after the IVF #1 retrieval. So, we went through the sordid story, she left and I waited on Doogie. Doogie comes in and all of the composure I had mustered in the 5 minutes I had alone was gone in an instant. I talked very openly about my current RE and how I feel they have lost hope in me, we are planning to change in '09, etc. He said he knew Dr. K (2n opinion RE) and that it wasn't uncommon to switch after a few failed cycles, yada yada. I guess I got his blessing to change :) My exam was uneventful, which was nice, and he said - from his perspective everything looks fine. I'll take that as good news!

In an earlier post, I mentioned that my nurse at the RE told me to call her on 9/22 if I still had no period. So, I gave her a shout out when I left Doogie. I always have to leave her a voicemail which annoys me to the Nth degree. (Dr. K has an EA who answers every time I call). Nurse called me back at 3:00 and said - come on in tomorrow for some bloodwork. That didn't work for me, so, I told her I could come in then or Thursday. I went in yesterday afternoon and she sent it off with today's bloodwork. While she was taking my blood yesteday, I said, "Thanks for taking it today - I really didn't need to miss any work tomorrow." Her reply (I AM NOT KIDDING), "Oh, no problem. It's totally fine to take it in the afternoon, I'll just have to remember to get it out of the fridge tomorrow to send to the lab. I have been known to forget." SERIOUSLY????? I considered calling her this AM (to leave her a VM) to tell her not to forget my vial of blood in the fridge. It annoyed the hell out of me.

She just called me back today with my results. Apparently, I have just "ovulated" - no idea if a follicle was there or not. She said it happens in "rare" cases for your body to start a new cycle on its own without having a period. I said, "Man, I wish I'd known - I'll take my 3% chance of getting PG on my own rather than a 0% chance." And she acted like it was no big deal - "oh, well - it happens really rarely, so, we just didn't mention it". What I am left to ponder is: What else don't they mention to me? She said I should start within the next 10 days.

I feel like another cycle just went down the tubes, quite literally.