Monday, February 23, 2009

Less than 24 hours to go....

WOOT WOOT!!! I am so ready to just KNOW. Dare I say it...but the spotting has been very minimal so far today.

I am staying true to my mantra...

Dear Lord, please let this be a healthy pregnancy and not a period.

I think I must have said that about a million times last night - into the wee hours of morning. I was hoping He would get annoyed with me repeating it and shout down - FINE! STOP BEGGING! LOL.

My spirits are much better today, as they were yesterday. Saturday was just a rough day and I lost any sort of sanity I had been clinging to. We had dinner (if you want to call it that) with some friends Saturday night. They have a 4 month old. It was AWFUL. AWFUL times 1 million. The dad was a freak - he wouldn't even let me hold the baby. We stayed at their house less than 2 hours. These are people we used to vacation with. It was very sad to know that we've lost friends. It was just soooooo awkward. They have totally changed since the baby got here. Clearly, I know that some things must change when you have children - you can't take them to a bar and stay out till all hours. But this was beyond normal change....this was way beyond even a lot of change. This was like we were visiting total strangers. It was so uncomfortable.

I was already so upset about the spotting and then that just made it so much worse. We went to bed at 9:00 and I cried myself to sleep.

I am better now, though. Thank the Lord! We can survive 24 more hours of this.

14 comments:

Dagny said...

Sorry about your friends. I guess sometimes people just take themselves FAR too seriously...my bro and his chick are like that. Same...only they could hold the kids..ugh.

So yeah, I'm sorry, that sucks.

Good luck tomorrow!!!!!!!

xoxox

Megan said...

I wouldn't let them hold your baby when you have it either. Two can play that game! Good luck tomorrow!!!

Anonymous said...

good luck tomorrow. the marathon that is the 2ww is almost over. i will be thinking of you.

Just Believing said...

Thinking of you so much! Going to say a prayer right now!

Anonymous said...

I don't know how you've managed not to POAS yet...you are a far stronger woman than I. Good luck tomorrow, my thoughts and prayers are with you.

Anonymous said...

You have GOT to let us know how it all goes!

S X

Polly Gamwich said...

And you're not POAS??? You're just crazy!!!

Hoping for some great news soon!

Pookie-san` and ME said...

I am just gonna say it now(me singing)...You are pregnant, you are pregnant.

CONGRATS!!!! Have a happy pregnancy, enjoy every moment of it, every queasy, mild headache, achy back, itchy tummy-boobs-legs,sore nipples,thristy, weird cravings moment that you have. It's all worth it.
GG

Angie said...

Sorry about your friends, too.....good call on asking for the p4 ~ good luck tomorrow! I'll be praying for you!

Anonymous said...

I've seen several formerly normal people turn to freaks as new parents, too . . . it is a little frightening, hard to fully grasp, and VERY uncomfortable to be around.

Keep saying/thinking your mantra. You're almost there!!! XOXO

GINA and KEV said...

Fingers and toes all crossed for good news.

((hugs))

Phoebe said...

Yeah, talk to God as much as you need to. I think being very specific in your requests is a good thing! Oh, and don't forget all your guardian angels, your baby's guardian angels, and your spirit baby while you are at praying! They are all listening! Good luck tomorrow!!

Shelby said...

Thinking of you today and wishing you the best!

Anonymous said...

I have been thinking of you all morning, looking forward to hearing/reading your news!