So, I've had a few minutes - wow - it's already been 3 hours - to calm down. While I realize that we could somehow make it through this and have a totally healthy baby, my doctor did not sound positive.
What gets on my nerves is that I have not had any "chemical pregnancy symptoms" this time like I did last March. No excessive tiredness, no excessive back pain, no excessive sore breasts for this early on.
I'm getting to the pissed off stage of this grief. I want to just have Faith and believe that He will fulfill our dreams of becoming parents to our biological child, but after 26 months of negative pregnancy tests, I think it's only human to doubt.
Hoping tomorrow I can have a better attitude and more faith.
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I am so sorry you are in limbo. I am praying that you get your miracle!
Hei...
I just want to stand with you in faith and pray and hope for a miracle.
Nancy @ http://thenewlifeofnancy.blogspot.com/
had a beta of 15 some time last year. While I recognize that it's higher than 10, it was still a low beta, and she was told the pregnancy would not be viable or would probably be ectopic. She had her son last month.
My point is... don't give up, unless you absolutely have to.
Get cheap peesticks and pee daily to assure yourself if hcg is increasing or not.
I know it's not easy. You've come this far--first with only one embie, then a blessed 2nd, and now holding on by a finger. Hang in there hun.
Praying for the best.
Anna
I'm so sorry, I hope your little one surprises everybody and pulls out strong.
((HUGS))
Thank you all so much. Your support means so much.
I'm so sorry that you are having to go through this after all the roads you have traversed. I am holding out hope for you. **HUGS**
I am saying a prayer for you now! You never know what great things can still happen.
I am soooo sorry. My heart hurts for you. I really really hope it turns out good, but I understand that you have to prepare yourself for the worst.
This is the worst kind of waiting. The worst. I'm so sorry.
What a horrible thing for your doctor to say to you! You are still in the game. Be patient. Be patient with your embryos. I know a woman here who is going through the exact same thing. First beta was 9, second was 48. She's waiting to hear on the third beta. Hang in there!
I am sorry it cannot be an *easy* answer ~ but don't give up hope ~ praying for you....
26 months is a long time indeed. I hope you get good news today!
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